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May 26, 2022
Being a self-advocate in a Chinese society is tough. On the one hand, you have to accept that there is likely to be a disparity in the knowledge of the people in your local community compared to the international community. On the other hand, you are being held to international standards by the international community. […]
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May 17, 2022
There are a couple of reasons why I’ve been feeling anxious and petrified. For one, after a period of procrastination, I’ve finally launched my research survey and posted my recruitment flyer on twitter. I expect to follow up with further social media postings. I’ve tested the survey a couple of times myself and it seems […]
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Apr 9, 2022
There are questions I find difficult to answer and things I don’t want to talk about because they made me upset, like how am I doing (because what do you really want to know, how much do you want to know and what does doing okay and fine really mean, I simply don’t know), what’s […]
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Mar 19, 2022
The first thing I woke up today (11-ish) was to check my WhatsApp message and was relieved to see there was no new message. And then I checked it again another 3-4 times in the afternoon. No new messages. Another relief. I just checked in again a few minutes ago (11:30pm), there it goes. Four […]
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Mar 18, 2022
It felt like a long week. I can’t say I feel a sense of relief that it’s Friday, fearing that I would be getting further messages from X. But I am excited about my plan for this evening, I’m going to binge watch this series that just came out on Netflix today. It’s a Taiwanese […]
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Mar 17, 2022
Dear old dear, that person is relentless… I hate these distractions and disruption to my schedule but I can do this… at least I think that person is opening up a bit, I can do this…remember, it takes time to build trust, be calm, I’m in control, I can do this. Braver, stronger, smarter
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Mar 16, 2022
I try not to think about it but the incident keeps replaying in my mind. I’m still very perturbed by what happened and experience bouts of anxiety, worried about receiving unpleasant messages. I don’t want to hate but I am still mad. I’m not the magnanimous person I hope to be. Does this make me […]
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Braver, Stronger, Smarter
Thank you for all your encouragement. It is comforting to know that people are out there listening, even though we are worlds apart. Something that cheered me up yesterday was getting a message from DHL, which was how I found out that my mum has sent me another parcel. She didn’t tell me she was […]
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Mar 15, 2022
I was going to post an update yesterday but having used up all my spoons for the day, I didn’t. With my weekend interrupted, I wasn’t looking forward to the start of another week. As much as I would like to avoid further contact with that autistic person, I had to be professional and maintain […]
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Mar 13, 2022
I couldn’t sleep last night and didn’t sleep until 8am. I was still upset by the incident, and I feel discouraged and let down. I don’t feel any sense of accomplishment from the work I’m doing nor a sense of unity with the autistic communities. A misfit, whether by neurotypical or autistic standards. I’m in […]
Bloody Hell Diary 